1. Be a better person and friend. I know everyone makes this resolution, but when I say it it's not a load of bull shit (sorry guys, I can't write for an audience that can't handle the gift of cursing). 2009 was ridiculous on a lot of levels. I feel like the tonster and I survived a shitstorm of epic proportions. I compare our employment situation to the TV show Survivor. We came into work every day with our fingers crossed that our torch wasn't going to be extinguished. He had a close call, I felt like I had 5 close calls... when in reality I probably had 2. Any bad feelings, depression or anger seemed to waterfall from that. I think it's safe to say that we both spent 12 months of our lives worrying about where our proverbial next meal was going to come from. But, with every storm cloud there exists a silver lining. More on that in resolution 2. Honestly, some of the ties in my life had to be severed or are hanging by a thread at this point because of the way I handled 2009. I solidly resolve to bring my wolfpack back to myself and learn to be the kind of friend I expect to have. My ability to be a good friend falls short of my own "friend expectations" and that's just piss poor.
2. Resume/continue saving money. Bottom line. I. Can't. Accomplish. My. Goals. If. I. Don't. Learn (annoying yet?). To be fiscally and financially responsible for myself. This includes going back to school, staying home to raise my family or helping my husband really give the breath of life to this photography business he wants to start. Financial responsibility is not his problem. It's mine. I'm the one that overspends, overshops and over consumes. I learned a lot about the real world over the past year. 5 years ago (in February) we purchased a house, and last year I experienced the sheer terror of what would happen if we lost it. I am thankful that we did not, but we agreed to learn to live as though our next paycheck was our last. That learning process involved a lot of alcohol and tears. Lots and lots and lots and lots of tears.
3. Lay off the alcohol. I am not a drunk, I am not even close to what I assume an alcoholic looks like. But I never want to look like an alcoholic either. This might be the only image I don't want people to have of me. As fiercely as I feel that other's opinions don't matter, this opinion matters. I need to stop it.
4. Get in the gym and stay in the gym. I resolve not to lose weight or "get healthy". I enjoy going to the gym. I resolve to go to the gym and continue going. I actually ENJOY physical activity. 2 years ago when they built the gym attached to my workplace, I inwardly cringed. No more excuses not to go, because it's right there and it's easy. So I went, and found out that I loved it. It's an immense stress relief tactic for me, and it's probably the single best weapon I have against the shorter daylight hours in the winter time. I seriously regret that I didn't participate in any group or individual sports when I was younger.
5. Watch all of the oscar nominated movies. Or at least watch as many as I can within reason. I love movies, I typically watch at least 1/3 of the movies nominated. I'd like to see at least 2/3 this year. The last 1/3 I'm counting as foreign language animated and the movies that are inaccessible to those outside of Hollywood.
6. Read less braincandy. Expand my literary horizons. Possibly try to keep a book diary/online journal. I probably just lost cool points for that one.
That's that. I have been giving these serious thought in the past week and wanted to record for personal posterity.
I close with a few pictures Tony has taken as proof that standing by my husband's decision to become a photographer is a very good one.
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